At any given point we navigate life with whatever depth of understanding finds us......and at some points in our lives it is a lot.....sometimes less.....but it is all important.....leading us to where we are supposed to be.....And for me at the moment I feel like I am in a place where so much of so much makes sense......finally.....the seasons I walked through, the times I was challenged.......the times I was called more deeply into myself.....discovering what was within....

In the beginning of my divorce journey I was given a choice.....I was in blinding pain and suffering......wondering often, if I would make it.....the emotional pain taking my breath away.....and I was faced with the choice of how I was going to show up in this story.....was I choosing to take the high road, or sinking into the land of pettiness and ugliness....and as I sit here today choosing to take the high road......and not succumb to the storm at the time was the way.....

Being a female is tough in lots of ways.....I could likely write a whole blog about it lol:) But one of the toughest things is combatting "mean girls"......or more importantly "mean girl energy".......because the truth is most girls, or women that run around spreading mean girl energy, aren't mean at all......they are insecure......they feel powerless.......they are scared.......they are sad.......they feel____________so many things, and the way to regain their power is to ma

Before I discovered that my ex had been cheating, if you had asked me if I would have tolerated that, or taken him back, the answer would have been no......I had already lived that story in a previous relationship......and in my mind that was a no.....but then.....it happened.....and I had a 4 year old.....a 13 year old son with special needs, and the love of my husband......and the love of the idea of our family succeeding......so there it was staring me in the face......thi

Every day my journey requires me to grieve people that are alive.....and I mean from a human standpoint, I am glad they are alive......completely.....but sometimes our journeys require us to watch a person we cared about at one point "die" for all intents and purposes, except for actual death.......metaphoric death if you will.....and I have had that happen in a big way 3 times in my life......having to navigate the grief of grieving a person that is alive......and it has bee

Today is my last day of work till next Monday! My schedule is different than my kiddos this year.....I had originally hoped we would be headed to Myrtle Beach next week......some sand and sun feeling as if it was in order due to the Arctic Tundra we just lived through ;-) BUT my girl had a call in her soul to do Girls on the Run at her school, and can't miss practice....she is also in a play tonight, and tomorrow and then is beginning Girls on the Run next week.....so we stay

I met with a client last night, she and I having similar journeys......and I suppose for myself what occurs to me over and over is the realization that I have never had a healthy romantic partnership........healthy parts of it yes......time periods perhaps.......but for sure not healthy....and realizing that more and more is clarifying.......but also a little heartbreaking......if I am honest......having such a skewed perspective at one point that it clouded every move I made

No action or story is an island.......nobody's.......and the lives we live are impacting all of the lives around us every day......whether we want them to be or not, or maybe think they are or not.....and it is all starting to make such sense to me, and clarity is arriving at a deeper level for me about so much.....I had my daughter when I was 40......and right before she turned 5 her dad left, and the first two years of her life were lovely.....her dad and I adored her from

I remember writing about this awhile back, and today finds me feeling a shift about it all......but still marveling......we make our way in this life, and travel with people that resonate in our story, and then we travel with them for exactly as long as is needed to get to the next point......and sometimes people stay in our peripheral forever:) I love when that happens.....I have friends..... still........ that have remained for decades of my life.....and they are treasures.

I am hoping today's blog reaches somebody that needs to hear it.....so aging is a part of life, no doubt.....but FEELING old......that is optional......the way we feel in our body reflects the decisions we make.....and I can only write this blog because I have lived in both places.....during middle age......at the end of my marriage, I felt so beaten down that the aging process was accelerating.....and I was stepping fully into the "old lady" suit.....thinking this is what it

I have been a deep dive lately into really thinking on my journey, and where I am right now.....and just feeling absolutely blown away by all of the pieces that fell into the last almost 50 years, that led me right here.......particularly the last 5 or so......like so many subtle and not subtle shifts, that carried this new story into existence for me.....my ex leaving on that fateful night in early January of 2021, and the word fateful just hit a little different this mornin

Yesterday was such an exciting day.......The equinox.......Creating balance.......literally in our natural world, and in my case it touched down in a part of my own story that allowed for the final pieces to fall into place for my workshops! Creating balance between my teacher and coach self.........Feeling as if the powers that be have rolled out the red carpet for me, and FEELING so completely, the divinity and alignment, and movement as I made the intuitive moves I was gi

My 50th birthday is coming in hot........I have mentioned that I will be 50 in May.....and I wasn't sure how I wanted to celebrate........my parents asking me if I wanted a party.....not sure if a surprise would be something I wanted......and we batted some ideas around and options.....one of them being at a place in our area, and having it be expensive per head etc......and it is a good amount of people.....and that just seemed, like a waste.....and totally not like me......

I sometimes share my "woo woo" side in this blog lol:) I have written many times about my spirituality breaking open.......vast and wide in this chapter.....so clearly meant to be part of the tale of my life.....traditional love of God and Jesus being such a part of that......but so much more has shown up......and has felt just as divinely placed.......leaving a knowing within me that there is SO much we do not know......and that the Universe is a vast and magical place......

I was a cheerleader in high school......and in a league when I was younger, and it hit me the other day that the irony of that is not lost on me......it was sort of one of those realizations that evokes a little smirk, my realizing that cheering for others in some way or another, has been a thing all of my life.....literally in all of its forms.....and I loved cheerleading then and now.....but I have realized too, along that same understanding, that the people we expect to su

We do a WIN period in school......and it stands for "What I Need".....and yesterday I had to leave work a half a day......was having some stomach issues, had them in the morning but had tried to go to work.....and I woke up this morning still not feeling well enough to go to work.....and I had to call off....and if you are a teacher you can relate to how challenging that is....so many moving pieces.....and I struggle with it.....I very rarely take a day for me.....they normal

I had a spiritual experience yesterday....actually this entire weekend has been spiritually charged if you will;-) Saturday I was in full creation mode.....and then I took my kids to church yesterday.....with the realization that in the content I had created, the idea of light is a theme in so much of it.......a predominant theme in the components......and in church yesterday light was mentioned at least 20 times......feeling very much like a sign to me, and then my hymn play

I had written awhile back about getting a lightning bolt, and in my opinion a divinely placed moment, this last betrayal showing me another level of empowerment, and self respect.....and through some events, it occurred to me to ponder what would happen IF young girls could step into their power BEFORE they gave it away......preventing young girls, which is my goal for my own daughter too:), from having to walk in the paths that their mothers have......couple all of that with

Since I began this journey I have created some analogies to attempt to explain the senseless things I have encountered, and make better sense of them, to the best of my ability.......and one of them that makes sense so completely to me, is that I have placed all the grief I have accumulated in this life, inside of a "whale" that lives within me......and the whale swims peacefully within me most of the time......coexisting with me, and holding all that pain and grief for me, s

So I think as we get older, getting to do things that are our "firsts" is kind of a fun thing......maybe becoming more important than ever, and experiencing the world in a new way......and we all get into our comfort zones in our older age, and being intentional about trying new things, or having new experiences is everything I think:) And I have long loved getting a massage.....a simple but yet such a profound pleasure......and my Taurus is drawn to beautiful things, luxurio