I think we all live in duality within us.....Having conflicting parts of us vying for the center stage of who we are......some of those things being great, and maybe some not so great......things that serve us.....and things that hinder us......and sometimes those things are both great things too, even if they are in competition with one another.....but one always ends up being stronger......and one of those for me, is that I am both fiercely strong, but also have a tender he

Yesterday my kids were going with their dad......and I had planned on going hard at yard work, and I was grateful to have the help of my mom and dad, because tearing down my pallet wood shed was in order too.....I have not liked it since I have moved here......it was wildly functional, but very unsightly, my yard is beautiful and it just never fit......it was pallets on all sides, and then a roof that had a tarp on it.....and I will say it was functional all these years....bu

I am truly in a space that feels so real, and like me......and my tolerance for fake and phony is none, like not even a little......and I only seek to have people standing around me that seek to be there, and are authentic and true.....and anything else is well.....not worth it......ride or die and repeat.......and I am so lucky that I do have that these days, and more tribe members are emerging.....and I was thinking of the work I have done surrounding apologies......for a g

I have pondered the idea of karma on this journey......mainly the last 5 years or so.....and not in a punitive and retributive way......I mean that.....I have worked deeply on the places in me that would want karma to have its say to those that have harmed me......I wish them well.....that is true......but I suppose if anything is true......I hope they meet themselves in another person.....that I will own.....I am not sure you can truly understand the magnitude of what you ha

I had the pleasure of meeting with the coaching group at Dr. Pathak's office last night.......there are monthly meetings for her weight loss clinic, and I am the health coach piece of it......and last night the topic was mental health and the importance of it as a pillar of health.....and the people that came were lovely, and I learned more about the resources our area offers from a patient that had a wealth of knowledge.....and one of the things that came up was something th

I needed this reminder again today and maybe you do too:) I am living in a life that is close to checking the boxes of all I have ever wanted.......I live in a house I love......one that feels cozy and like me.....I have two kids that give me life, and that I adore more than anybody on the earth.......I have two professions that make me feel passion and purpose in my soul.......I feel REALLY healthy.....like REALLY......a connection finally between my mind, body, and spirit..

I have written about dating often along this journey......and I suppose if I am honest I am not really built for dating......or the culture of dating now.......I am a one person kinda gal.....the kind that loves romance, love, monogamy, passion, MY person kinda energy......and the current culture is well.....mostly not that.....and I won't settle for less than all of that and more.....I now expect what I give in love, end of story.......and I think that walk I did on Sunday s

Yesterday was amazing! And it was confirmation, even more so, that I am standing right where I belong......three moms and their kiddos came out to walk......strangers......and the energy between us all felt like magic......it was easy.....and fun.....and their girls were amazing.....and I have trusted each step......every client that reaches out.....everybody that attends a women's series......every single person that is meant to cross paths with me will.....and that has been

I am waking up with roots on my mind......my I Got YOU GIRL walk is this morning.....and I am excited:).....and so much about roots resonate, as I think of it all......the roots that take hold when your belief is so strong in yourself finally, and in your vision for your life........the roots that come from living things.......as I wander in nature, one of my favorite places to be.......the roots that appear when you finally show up as YOU......after fighting it for most of y

Tomorrow it begins......my vision taking shape and flight some:) My mother daughter I Got YOU GIRL walk is tomorrow! This vision was placed on my heart, and in my mind in the fall of this past year......a lightning bolt of inspiration one early morning, that came to me through a series of moments placed in front of me.....and it immediately resonated in my heart.....immediately.....and then the concept and "brand" took shape.....I have people's backs fiercely.....it is who I

My journey has required me to look at trust deeply......having had it violated in the most intense ways......and caused me to ask myself "What makes it possible to trust another person????" Like REALLY..........And I guess I used to think I knew the answer to that question......I used to think spending time getting to know a person deeply would guarantee that they would be honest and trustworthy.....and that isn't true......they can hide a whole part of themselves, or attempt

Remember that show?? Obviously for my title today I am playin on words some;-) But I promise I have a point lol:) One part of my life that challenges me some, are some of the tasks around my big place that need to be done beyond my capabilities, and that start to stack up.....the deep guy stuff ;-) And even as I typed that it makes me feel some kinda way.....because I am challenging myself to decide whether I really CAN'T do something.....or if I just haven't done it YET:) An

There has been a curious part of this story that I haven't explored in my blog yet, so I thought this morning may be a good time to do that:) When I was pregnant with my daughter, I felt great, I was in the "advanced maternal age" category at the time, due to my being 40......a humbling category lol:) Then at the end of the pregnancy, I filled with some fluid.....felt like one of those Thanksgiving Day parade balloons some lol:) All puffy and stuff ;-) But I lost all of the w

Seeking to make somebody else feel bad so you can feel better is..........well......and as more healing has taken hold, not only is it important to pay attention to what others do, it is important to pay attention to ourselves.....and sometimes we exist in a dance with other people that doesn't serve us.....and my self worth is not up for negotiation at all anymore....and I don't deserve to be treated poorly by anybody in my life, and I have relationships that have existed in

I suppose part of my motivation and passion continues to come from the practices in my life that are watering me.....and not wanting to keep it to myself......but it is difficult to really impart that to another person, until they are ready to receive it.....but I cannot really say enough how much I feel meditation has helped me in my life as I have hunkered down into the practice.....it feeds me similarly to exercise......which by the way I have new things going on there to

I wrote the other day about feeling triggered, and did my video yesterday about it some....and it is interesting when you have trauma, and you get triggered....it is often not the thing that triggers you that is significant.....it is the feeling and wound that lies underneath....and for me the wound I have been able to identify that is the deepest for me is one of not being chosen.....it sounds so simple right? And maybe silly some from where you are sitting, but for me profo

It sounds dramatic, but it is true, and has been my experience......since 2018, and perhaps most of my life I have been in a spiritual and emotional bootcamp of sorts.....and the last couple years being the most intense.....forcing me to look at the parts of myself that had been on autopilot, and contributing to some of the pain I have endured.....and challenged to CHANGE it......finally.......once and for all, and close a loop that doesn't serve me and my life and my growth.

I had written a little while back about realizing the parts of myself that are in tension with one another.....a part of me that has always yearned for family and normalcy....whatever that means right;-) But the creation of a home......the tradition of a family......a mom and a dad, couple of kids.....days spent cooking dinner.....playing in the yard, eating on the deck....planning a family vacation......all of it.....and then it was gone.....and I had to rebuild the parts th

I am deep diving in the magic of the connections we make, and how they lead us to the places we are supposed to be......if I had any doubt that that was a thing, and THE thing, I have NONE now.....I speak often about the fact that at any given moment you are standing RIGHT where you are supposed to be....no need to overthink or wonder.....because there you are:) RIGHT on time.......especially if you can face your own stuff and get out yo way;-) This week I took the kids, and

At any given point we navigate life with whatever depth of understanding finds us......and at some points in our lives it is a lot.....sometimes less.....but it is all important.....leading us to where we are supposed to be.....And for me at the moment I feel like I am in a place where so much of so much makes sense......finally.....the seasons I walked through, the times I was challenged.......the times I was called more deeply into myself.....discovering what was within....